Hi, I currently am leasing a beautiful bay Dutch Warmblood named Marco from my barn, but I have a problem. I have just recently switched from Dressage to Hunter and started half leaseing a beginner hunter horse last christmas and I absolutely love him and I think he's my heart horse. I love him so much, but I think I'm starting to get too high leaveled for him, I personaly don't care and I would buy him in a second, but I'm still a kid and I don't have the time or money to own a horse. Additionaly he is starting to get close to retirement and I would like to keep riding in shows. I have gone through loss of a horse before and I don't think I could take it again (I still can't look at photos the sweet chesnut mare I used to ride without sobbing like a baby). Please help, what should I do, should I drop the lease right now and cut my losses, or should I hang on until either my parents or my trainer say I have to stop.