It hasn't even been two weeks since I lost Isis and today I found a mammary tumor on Freyja. I honestly cannot imagine not having Freyja in my life; she and I bonded instantly the moment I took her and her two day old litter from a terrible pet store. It is really bothering me how short their lifespans are and how horribly common illnesses are in them. I knew all of this when I first got rats, but I think it's just now really starting to sink in. I don't know if I'll get more rats after my current mischief passes. I've always thought of myself as a fairly emotionally resilient person, but I just can't handle one loss/illness after another like this.