My friends don't understand this because it's just a rat but I lost my girls last year, today. by a freak chance of nature they died within two days of each other. This time last year I was holding liesel as she literally died in my arms after a long hard battle with heart disease. my poor baby fought so hard and just couldn't win. It's been a year but I'll never forget holding her as the life left her body. And in two days it'll be the anniversary of Zoey s death now too. I'm so sad remembering.its been a year and I'm still crying thinking about my girls and how I miss them. I thought it'd be easier now having other rats but it's not the same.. don't get me wrong I love my living rats, I will be sad when they die too but I guess I thought having them would make me not miss liesel and Zoey but it doesn't.